I can not bear the low salary of this job though it is very comfortable that you just need to work forenoon. However, in the long term I can see nothing valuable for me to grow. I study computer in my college, but I never go to work in that field such as programming or web developing, in short I didn't go to big cities for such opportunity, you know, only this place can you learn something and go into this field.

Though I am still in low of my life, no good job, no girlfriend, no longer young, but I am happy still, I know I am smart, I know I am good looking, I know just like sunnyv said you will success eventually. And that's enought, you can laugh at me, and I know you will laugh, do I guess right?

Now that I write these words above, I should explain some point that it is a low feeling made me do that. So many guys are more competent than me, I just feel myself inferior, I should accept this fact. The good thing is that I do not require more, I had a wish, and I hope I can accomplish it, I must, I am crying now but I have no tears for crying any more...I hope there is a place for you and me, even it is a while, it is enough.

I only write for those who understand me...