How sad I am! I can't sleep. I can't sleep.I miss my family very much. Since I came to Seattle, I have cried and afraideverything. Sometimes I thought of my parents, I regret my bad attitude and behaviorat home. When my parents asked me to eat something, I always didn't listen tothem and angry with them. Even though they didn't show disappointment to me, Iknow I hurt their heart. Before I went back to China, my parents had told methat their 20th marry anniversary is this year. Therefore, they plan to takeanniversary pictures with our third siblings. However, when I went back toChina, my brother and I planned to go traveling, so my parents schedule didn'tdo. I was so regretted by my parents. They always take good care of us and giveus a good environment. If we want to something such computers or phone, theynever say no to us. During the time at home, my parents gave up theirentertainment and job' time. They spent their time staying with us. I rememberthat I came here the day, my mother has had sick, but she wanted to send me tothe airport, she didn't tell me about it. When we were on the road, she wascarsickness. When I saw this action, I was sad. When I arrived in Seattle, Icalled phone to my parents and told them that I was fine. However, when I heardmy father told me that my mother has had sick, I was crying and willing to staywith her. If I could stay with her, I would make the message for her and takecare of her. Nevertheless, I could not do everything because I leave far awayfrom her.

It will start to go to school, but I don'tprepare to go to school. I don't know why my heart was full of fear. I feelalone because nobody has classes with me and my classes are hard. Even though Itold me that I can do my best and I should believe in me, but my heart alwaysappears sound which tells me I can't and I fail my classes at this quarter.Aaaa. Who can help me? Who? Who can give me power and confidence? I reallydon't want to have this feeling. I was depressing. I know I get homesickbecause I miss my parents so much.